Hey there..

been very buzy lately..especially wit my IA. Well believe it or not im finishing my IA next week!! Hooray for tat yah!! can't wait to mit my frens again...at last after 2 months, and im going back to school again..haha
Working in outside world u will learned a lot of things, about the job, the company, the pple around u and u will even see ur frens true colours!! Tats wat i learned when im attached at my company. But hey im happy being attached there actually, i made a lots of frens, even though they are old "makcikz2" hehehe...and it even make me not to things about my problems..

Yeah, im always having problems...one after another. But it seems like i can't shed any tears, coz i noe why wud i shed the tears 4 something tat wud juz wont even bother rite?? im learning to b very strong,especially inside....on the outside u may thought tat im real tough, but hey, i do have my soft part too yah..A girl will always be a girl...

Wat do u treat me as now? Who am i to u now? Am i really inside ur heart now? Do u even care about me? Are u really fulfilling ur promises to me? Do you still love me?
Well....i really 2 think tat u have change a lot!! and im really disappointed in u...u juz wont change rite?? U r still as ego like the old times...haiz...when is it tat u will change, like how u promise me tat u wud...??? Im givin u another chance actually 4 u 2 fulfill it...But how much longer do i have to wait 4 u to change...u r not treating me nice....and i juz dun feel tat u love me...Haiz...Please la ehk....try to change ur attitude and stop saying tat im having the attitude problems!!! i hate it when u said like tat...

Haiz...i tink its better i juz take a rest now...too tired to tink bout it anymore...

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Hmm....

cant believe it tat i met Doink!!! he knew tat i was cuming to cavana juz now..
and aidil told him to come over...i dont expect him to turn up seh...when i saw him
my heart skip a beat..and my hands were trembling, i juz cud not stand still...
my tears was about to drop, but i hold it...i really dont expect to mit him, and
further more i dont noe wats his reaction is gonna b like...well aidil ask me to go over and
juz sit 2gther wit him...and so i did...and the 1st ting tat i said to myself..he's gettin cuter
sak!!! Masyallah!! knapela mesti ni sume terjadi??hahha...i cant help it but to look at him
secretly..hehe..hes really damn cute!! serious...well but wat to do..haiz
and u noe wat...he made jokes!!! yah n he juz talk to me like nothin has ever happen
between us...well...cant blame it, mayb he juz wanna b fren back wit me..
and 1 more thing is tat...he wore the blue adidas watch!!! and he brought the white helmet!!

hmmmmmm.....wats his motive ehk??!! sengajekan die!! rabak seh...hahaha
but wateva it is...da lah...let bygone b bygone eh nad!! sabar jek..ape yg terjadi nie sume
ader hikmah nye..jgn simpan dendam or watever it is la...
(but actually kan, aku tk simpan dendam tapi kan...hmmm..rase rindu la
cant help it seh, when i looked at him juz now, i juz felt like huggin hm!!)

da la...smpi di sini jek....

good nite...to me...to family..to my frens..to u too cutey!! hehehe

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hmmm...

i juz dunnoe....why???why??? did u have to make me crying again?
and i juz cant understand u sometimes...why do i have to feel sad again...
u told me u will change..but i dunnoe whether u really mean wat u r saying...
coz i dun really tink tat u have change and tat u will change 4 the better...
i've been wanting to see changes in u...but i guess all i got was nothing...

i'm juz upset with u...i dun noe y..but at the same time i dun noe if i can still go on wit u
i have already forgetten bout the past and also him..y did u keep insisting tat i want to go back to him...i told u once and final..tat i wont be back wit him ever again!!
and tats final....and everyday if u kept talking about tat, u really made me sad...
and today u did it again,till i cant hold back my tears and cried...

i guess i really have to think hard bout it now...i may looked happy outside, but im juz controlling myself inside...its all up to u..i want u to make the decision..not me...and i want u to talk about us...and think about wats our future is gonna be like...please dun make me suffer...i'm trying my bez to love u back like how i used to in the past...but if u still wont change..i juz dun noe wat else to sae..haiz....

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hey peepz!!

sorie 4 not often updating my blog...been very buzy as u pple noe. Lots of things happened at the attachment place..and u noe wat i can't wait to get back to skul again!! i really miss skul loads..haiz..i'm really being very patient at my attachment place...if its not 4 my IA, i wud have left the place long ago..hehe...but hey the staff there were fine and great pple..except 4 one!!! i am gonna mish them when i get back to skul. but hopefully we will continue to contact one another. Todae i do closing wit aisyah only!! left the both of us at the fitness centre...all of them went home first...wah!!! u noe wat?! can get a bit scary when theres only 2 of u in there...hehehe
but luckily juz now Hanan fetch me home from there...he came all the way from his werkplace which is at queenstown to paya lebar juz to fetch me!! hehehe touching nye...mcm tk caye gitu die amek aku balek...
well tenks yah 4 sending me back home juz now...and i gave him a treat after tat, bought him a "Ramli Burger" at the "PASAR MALAM"
When i get home, i open my msn, and Aidil told me tat he chatted wit Doink...and doink asked about me...haiz..well cant really believe tat he still wanna asked bout me..

Well cutey if u happen to read my blog, and i'm sure u will someday or when u suddenly think about reading it...Juz wanna sae tiz to u...u ought to feel the shame and sad and wateva feelings tat u have 4 breaking up wit me...coz tats how i felt when u left me...till now..u dont noe how painful it is 4 me, but i guess its no use telling u all tiz now..things have already happened and we cant turn back the time..juz hope tat u will lead a good life ahead of u and be happy wit her...

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Always Be My Baby - Mariah Carey